At 10 Weeks.......

I have Lost 46 pounds. Yay me! I feel amazing. I am less tired and my ankle goes out on me less and less. Time will tell if the ankle gets strong enough to never go out on me again. But at least with the weight off I'm giving it a fighting chance.

Did you see the episode of The Biggest Loser when they go home for 18 days? And they have to lose 5% of their body weight! I loved that episode. I love it when Kassidy says "I'm a 1 cookie person, I'm one of those people". She went home and made cookies and had just one. I was so happy for her. I can so relate to that. I am still not there....unfortunately. Sometimes I think I am but I'm really not. I am still using food as a comfort tool. The crazy part is that since I'm being so careful about what I eat I am noticing the emotional eating like never before. It's so obvious to me. I am envious of my husband who eats for fuel only.

Let's see, the hard stuff at week 10 is

Chicken, it has a hard time going down
Not drinking with my meals
Getting all my daily protein in
Taking vitamins!!!!!

What I'm doing great at

Exercise, I'm doing my first post-op 5k on April 14
Staying below 700 calories a day
Getting all my water in
Not eating carbs

As I finished watching the Biggest Loser this week I was struck by how terrific it is that they have so many people to cheer for them each time they step on the scale.

I don't have that.

I guess it's a loving tribute that my family just loves me. It didn't matter that I was 100 pounds overweight and it doesn't matter if I'm the hottest mom on the block. I tell them about my weight loss and I get the "that's great" but I do miss the cheering section. I'm still waiting for that moment when I see a friend that doesn't know I had the surgery and that I haven't seen in awhile and they say, wow! You look amazing!!!!

I recently saw some people and we talked, hugged, they were happy to see me but they didn't seem to notice I had lost 45 freaking pounds! Crazy!

But I keep reminding myself that the internal rewards outweigh anything I get from others.

Oh, and I'm really close to getting my boots. I get a pair of western boots when I've lost 50 lbs.

I'm excited!!!!

Current weight 205